Personal Truth and Public Persona

by Jan Graham-McMillen

After all the decades of the development of the diverse Neo-Pagan, Earth based religions, I am sad to say that even within contemporary Druidism it seems we have not gotten over our need to manufacture lineages from ancient traditions that simply do not exist and establish credentials to prove authenticity of attainment that range from the dubious to the outright fraudulent. Even in circles frequented by of the most experienced Old-Timers, most of whom have developed well grounded reality-checking skills in decades of experience with the pagan community, you will find folks that cannot function comfortably within their faith without frequent personal reference to their own authenticity. Each personal introduction must include frequent reference to their bona fides because, presumably, if these titles, honorifics, degrees and stations are stated often enough, all will be convinced of their outstanding personal credibility and standing within their faith.

Without doubt, there are men and women within the Druid community who have practiced, studied and served with great dedication and deserve all the respect and honor their communities give them. What makes their appellations legitimate is that they have been given their honors in recognition for their deeds. Their honors have been conferred by those they have served, and are not merely self-conferred. Some of the followers of the Druid Path that I admire most use no titles at all, in public or among their colleagues and peers, but many have given years of service.

The public resurgence of interest in the Earth-based religions has been going on long enough that we have seen modern Pagans die of old age after life times of dedication to their faiths, and be replaced with new generations within disciplines. We even hear of the children of modern pagan families beginning to teach the faith that their parents taught them to their own children or rebelling against the faith of their parents and seeking out mainstream monotheism! We have this in common with our monotheistic neighbors whose children are no easier to raise than our own. But what we do not have that our mainstream contemporaries do is a faith that is fully accepted within the society that we live in. A Baptist and a Catholic and a Jew may not agree on essential religious philosophies but they are usually, at least publicly, in agreement that they each belong to a legitimate faith. A Wiccan or Druid does not often receive the same acknowledgement. Interfaith organizations are improving this situation, but Paganism is not yet accepted in the same way within our culture.

So we are, I believe, all a little insecure. Not in our faith, but in our comfort levels about the acceptance of our faith within our own society. Perhaps an effort to integrate ourselves into the broader world is the reason that we often see the appellation of Reverend awkwardly used in front of the name of members of pagan clergy. At least, it seems awkward to me to use a title commonly used by various Christian sects in these cases, and a little desperate. In an effort to achieve some parity of respect and validity with clergy from the mainstream in the eyes of the public and our peers, we attempt to force recognition of our legitimacy with the use of titles that are used by the majority religions that dominate our culture. In the end, it does nothing to enhance our credibility as pagans, nor does it make us any more respected or acceptable to the mainstream, because to the world at large the titles belong to other, sometimes antithetical religious philosophies.

We also see Internet credentials such as the on-line ordinations that are available instantly through any number of sites. It seems as though the ordination is usually free, but the laminated identification card and dashboard "Member of Clergy" parking signs are available for nominal fees. This custom has been the practice within the pagan community for a long time now as a useful and necessary legal tool, allowing pagan clergy to perform legal ceremonies. But more and more often I see the acquisition of instant ordination presented as a verification of some sort of spiritual attainment and is again essentially self-conferred.

Much worse than that ethically, and more damaging to our general credibility is the acquisition of on-line academic degrees without the years of study spent to attain them legitimately through accredited institutions. This is not only a problem in the pagan community. These instant degrees are showing up on resumes in all walks of life, showing that pagans are not the only members of our culture that are sometimes seduced by the availability of "instant" credentials. Truth is often subjective, but this practice is too far a stretch of Truth to be anything but fraudulent. One of the sad facts about even legitimate academic credentials is that they only give a partial picture of attainment or expertise, and are of limited value especially within the subjective realm of religion. Illegitimate credentials say nothing more of the individual claiming them than they may be pathetically insecure in their own self-esteem at best and guilty of dishonor and dishonesty at worst.

The above are the most blatant and obvious ruses that we often see in use among our fellow pagans, but there is a more insidious sort of charlatanism that we as pagans fall prey to all too infrequently. Most of the forms of Druidism recognize that there are no unbroken, unchanged or undiluted lineages that date from the era of the ancient Druids who shaped the Celtic Bronze age cultures. Revivalists can legitimately point back some three hundred years to the various resurgences of interest in the preservation of Celtic culture, but they are also clear that in even those cases there are historical interruptions, starts and stops within the continuity of their Druidism. Most Celtic Reconstruction oriented followers of the Druid Path prefer to find what historical evidences exist and use them to define current theory about the practices of the ancients. That information is then used in various ways to create contemporary Druidic theologies and rites suitable to modern use. But we still see those within Druidism those who continue to make vague references to lineages of teaching that are purely fabricated at worst and at best are drawn from "granny-stories" of fragmentary folk traditions that so many of us have from tales passed down through our immigrant families. While these stories of remaining folk practices indicate that not all has been completely lost, they do not provide evidence of Druidic lineage. Since it is difficult to prove or disprove the veracity of lineage tales, we often see exaggeration and embellishment applied to them and soon there are many more "sow ears" of imaginary traditions masquerading as the yearned for but improbable "silk purses" of long established traditions, even within contemporary Druidism. The gullible are then impressed with what is claimed but cannot easily be disproved, and the ideals of Truth as a tenet of Druidism at large is compromised. This is never defensible, but few pagans are willing to be confrontive enough to go to bat for the reality of the situation, knowing full well that to do so is to confront someone who may well be delusional.

Most active Druids who choose to build contacts within their community spend time making contacts through the Internet, and it has been a communications boon that has allowed people who would never have met otherwise to connect. Druidism has grown and benefited from this gift, but there are still those who conduct their whole spiritual lives in the Cyber-Realms. Often, this is the only contact some folks have with like-minded individuals, and the medium provides a valuable service. Whole organizations with impressive numbers in their membership exist only on-line and can produce well thought-out correspondence that enhances the spiritual lives of many in very positive ways.

But along with the blessing of increased contact comes the problem of the Internet Charlatan. Entire careers within the discipline of Druidism can and are fabricated on-line, and the most successful and long-lasting e-lists maintain the best of what they have to offer by maintaining an atmosphere of polite neutrality when these dubious claims are made, maintaining an ethic of taking people at their word. The assumption is that all Druids live by similar standards in defining Truth, and there is little choice but to accept with civility what cannot be proved or disproved for the sake of maintaining the existence of the list. Or is there?

This kind of role-playing on the Internet is particularly dangerous because we have none of the usual subtle cues such as body language, mannerisms, etc. to allow the kind of intuitive or lightly conscious personal assessments that we ordinarily use in face-to-face interaction. The Internet provides a distance and a shielding from ordinary scrutiny so that it becomes difficult to present a more genuine persona without giving lie to the fabricated personality. The deceptions or half-truths or embellishments become impossible to jettison without risking loss of face in the community for the role-player. The danger is not only to a credulous community but to the one who does the fabrication. It becomes impossible to be genuine.

One of the delightful aspects of Paganism at its best is the acceptance of a wide range of personal belief systems. Reconstructionist Druidism is somewhat set apart from other forms of Paganism by a distinct, admitted elitism that works in favor of many of the goals of the discipline, but sometimes tempts insecure individuals to fabricate or embellish their credentials in order to gain acceptance within the community. The ancients we so admire belonged to a culture where strong class distinctions were present and understood by everyone, yet we operate as modern Druids in a society where the lines of class are blurred and are much more mutable, with a higher degree of individualism throughout. The role of the Druid in the modern world can never be the same as it was in the ancient world. One of the great challenges of Druidism is to find productive ways to reconcile these differences and still maintain a Celtic spiritual perspective, and as yet there is little agreement on how that should be accomplished.

The creation of great Druidic seminaries is often put on the table as part of the possible future of modern Druidism, but most orders, organizations and more casual groups still face the challenge of how to equitably divide up the cost of the communal mead without bickering. Any number of the larger, often international Druidic organizations offer distance learning courses in their own disciplines, but as valuable as they are, they rarely measure achievement with stringent standards and operate on the honor system in determining whether the student has actually done all the work required. The honor system is the rule rather than the exception within all the Druidic disciplines that I know, and there is merit to operating in that trusting mode in matters of faith. However, there is a point where our willingness to trust the honor and truth of the claims of some of our colleagues is so stretched that we become the victims of our own desire to be accommodating.

So unless we launch inquisitions and constantly demand proofs and verifications, possibilities that would quite correctly be met with resounding rejection from the Druid community across the board, how are we to address these concerns? If it appears that, as contemporary Druids, we honor Credential alone above the genuine attainment that is sometimes supported by formal titles or degrees, but sometimes not, then perhaps we should attend to that perception

Our whole culture is in an era of "spin". We listen to our national leaders speak in fact-free hyperbole, and defend lies and half-truths with more hyperbole. Thankfully, there is beginning to be some public recognition of these tactics, and there is hope that we may become less accepting as a society of anything less than integrity from our elected officials. Does the path that we have chosen to define our spiritual lives deserve any less discernment or insistence on integrity? .

When we thoughtfully consider Truth as a prime virtue of our faith, we must understand its myriad subjective elements. That should not take us so far as to personally accept the small or large embellishments and exaggerations that have become so much a part of pagan culture, whether they are used to enhance our own self-image, or if we see them in the claims of others. I cannot think of a Druid order or organization that does not honor Truth as a major tenet of faith. As Druids we are not only honor bound to strive toward an understanding of the nature of Truth, but higher standards of self-examination in our daily application of Truth as we apply it to our own lives. Many of us understand that some of the greatest Truths are difficult to define, that Truth is often subjective and open to debate, but while facts can be stretched, they cannot be twisted and spun to the breaking point and remain Truth.

We should strive always to be aware of the difference between seeing ourselves in an affirmative and positive light, and the current habit so prevalent in the pagan community of twisting, stretching or embellishing the truth of our own experience to the point it becomes a lie. If a follower of the Druid path cannot distinguish where that line is drawn, then we merely have someone lacking in wisdom, but if he or she will not acknowledge that line, then we have a dishonest Druid. The very essence of the life of the individual Druid, and the way that we define ourselves should be bound by our deepest understandings of Truth if we are to claim it as a prime tenet of our faith. If we are wise, we do not try to lie to our Gods, and should apply that wisdom to all aspects of our own self-presentation within our faith.

Since we have no Commission of Druidic Ethical Behavior, or Druid Credential Committees, then we will each have to define for ourselves how far we are willing to tolerate exaggeration in exchange for accuracy, fantasy in exchange for reality, and accept preposterous credentials instead of authentic attainment as the measure of a Druid. If we individually remember to fairly and ethically apply the determination of Truth within ourselves, then perhaps our understanding and application will spread to our groves and organizations and have an ultimate positive effect in the larger Druid community.

One of the Triads of Ireland teaches:
"Three candles that illumine every darkness - truth, nature, knowledge."
Let us light those candles within ourselves first, and illuminate our own willingness to accept who we truly are as Druids. We must be truthful in our own self-evaluation, understand the real nature of our personal Truths, and understand that the application of Truth to self-knowledge is a continuing and never ending part of our faith as Druids. Perhaps that will ultimately lead us each to the spiritual accomplishment and fulfillment we so long to attain in the end.